starting something.....I HAVE to finish!

Tonight, Rachel is going to bed without her blanket. Her blanket that is attached to her almost like skin. I was attached to a blanket as a child in the same way, and I remember how devasted I was to be without my blanket. I have always taken up for her about her blanket b/c I do know what it feels like.

So.......why have I taken it away from her?? I am desperate. I have tried everything I know to get her to behave. She acts so ugly to everyone in this family and we have tried just about everything we can think of to correct the behavior. Tonight, on the way home from the movie...now this would be after we'd had a few battles in the day about her behavior. She hit Leah. For no reason. Leah was screaming....while we were driving down the interstate. Clay pulled over.....and everyone got dead quiet as to not get a spanking...( you know...at night on the interstate....pulling off abrutly.....is pretty scary) So we proceeded.....everything quiet....and then, for no reason again, Rachel rared back ready to hit Leah again. I got on to her and told her she would be in trouble when we got home.....she then hit Leah with the blanket.....and then hit me in the back of the head with the blanket.

She hasn't gotten the blanket back from that point. I have really had all I can take with her behavior. I know she is seeking attention....but even when we try to give her positive attention, she is so ugly to us. When we got home, I took her to her room and we had a long talk. I hugged her a bunch, and told her how much all of us love her.....but until she could go a whole day and be nice to us, she couldn't have her blanket back. So far it has been an hour since we started bedtime.....she is still not asleep.... I know at this point....I have to win. She and I sat down and said a prayer before I left her room that God would keep her safe b/c she is scared without her blanket....and then, that she would be nice tomorrow so she could get it back. I hope this won't backfire on me....but no matter what, she is not getting her blanket back. Dr Phil says you have to find their currency...well....this is it.

These photos were taken by my friend Kelly Haynes in Star City Easter of 06 I think. She stripped down her cute Easter dress...and wrapped herself in the blanket.