Oh, my sweet baby....

Oh my sweet baby. Yesterday was a horrible day. Did I really live through my second day of almost losing a child to death? Praise the Lord for guiding you and me through it, and for the great improvement you have made.

Yesterday I was taking Christian into the doc b/c he was sick. He had just acted sick the day before, and I got up yesterday morning, and he wouldn't eat and was really weak, so I made him a doc appointment. I loaded everyone up, dropped them all off and headed to the docs office. He was gray looking when I got out of the car, and as I went in and was trying to get him to respond, he didn't, so I told them at the desk. They let me go straight back, and the nurse took one look and took off running, calling for help. She turned and took him from me, and took off. He had gone into respiratory failure. Yes...my baby was dying right there before my eyes. I will never forget the way his limp body felt, and how ashen he was. Horrifying. That imagine of him, and of everyone around him saving his life will be etched into my brain forever. It was surreal. I just burst into tears. Everyone around me was asking if I was o.k.... ME? Don't worry about me. My baby is dying.

They got him stabilized, and transferred us by ambulance. I have never been in an ambulance, and hope never again...especially watching them pump air into my baby's lungs keeping him alive. Another memory etched forever. His temperature was way down....I called Clay, and my strength got there soon. I called my mom, my comfort and she was there soon too. The moved us to ICU. He has improved greatly overnight, and is responding well to treatments. I am only home briefly, and there is more to this story, about how awesome everyone is...how awesome God is, that hopefully I can share later. Praise you Lord, and thank you for being with us yesterday.