add-on to the post below

I do want to add a few things to my post below just to explain myself. I was mad and frustrated earlier, so I was letting my words fly. I still agree, we are not raising this baby together. I do think it is important to have a good relationship with the parents, and let them be involved with their lives...they are their children. I just don't want to have to be chummy with them 3 days after I get their child, or call them on the phone while they have a no contact order against their child, or sit with them at the hospital right after they have that order lifted....that was lifted just b/c he is so sick. I do care...it was my idea for them to be able to call the hospital to get updates themselves, I encouraged the case worker to write the letter to get the contact order lifted.....but I am already just about at my breaking point. Worrying about him, waiting for the judges decision on Zachariah...balancing my time between everyone....stressing that I am not there for Talan at the hospital like I would be if it were my own child. Worrying over his high needs he will have when he comes home from the hospital....when I was barely hanging on before b/c he really should be considered special needs. Hearing them talking about feeding tubes and colon bags...and recurrances of his highly contageous c-diff infection he has right now. STRESS...that is all I can say. I just can't add his parents stress on top of that.