sleep

My head has been swimming with blog posts all week, but I am just too exhausted by the time I get a chance to sit down and do them. I could tell you so many positive things about this week, b/c there are a lot. I know that is what I need to focus on. But, the devil just knows how to get to me. It is in the sleep department. I have dealt very well with this until this week, but being sick, along with bringing another baby into the house.....oh my. He has found my weakness. I have been so proud of myself that I have dealt with the no sleep issue so much better than when my kids were babies. Our family has been going full force from 6 am until 8 or 9 at night. Then Zacharaiah and Hunter come to life. They won't go to bed for anything. Once they finally allow me to go to sleep, then it is someone different all night long. I went to bed at 1:30, and was awakened at 4:30 am by Amber SCREAMING in our bedroom door (this was after I had already been up 3 times with the 2 babies). And the minute I got up, she was suddenly o.k. and ready to watch her "princess movie". I marched her back to bed, and she was not happy about that. Then I heard Zachariah crying. This is after I stepped on and fell over Noah sleeping in our floor. I was cursing and ranting, so Clay got up, and joined me in the lovely no sleep induced mood I was in. In this case I don't think misery loves company. Then Hunter was up. Oh my word. That poor little boy. He can be SO good. But when he is not happy, nothing in this world will make him feel better than a bottle in his mouth. I think that is the only way he knows to be comforted. But then he gorges himself and is fussy b/c his belly hurts.

And all this goes on while my 3 bio kids are sleeping calmly and peacefully.....can you see how the devil is using this to toy with us? Do you know all the thoughts that have been going on in my head today wondering why I brought this on myself? Lack of sleep makes me very weak. It makes me feel like a monster. I NEED sleep at night. I am only asking for 6 hrs uninterrupted, but I need it to be able to take care of 6 kids full force all day. And, of course, now that Amber is a live wire, and the other 3 will be up soon, the babies will sleep all morning long.

Sorry about the rant today, hopefully the next time I get a chance to post, I will have a better attitude so that I can tell you all the good and sweet things that I love about all these babies.

Oh, and now I think all 3 of the new kiddos are sick. Fun fun.