I want to thank everyone for all your kind words, encouragement, and prayers. You don't know how much that means to me. I need it! This is not easy at all. I cried when I went through and read everything yesterday.
It was a very smooth and easy adjustment getting Zachariah, but these 2 new ones....WHEH it is a challenge! And, my kids are home sick from school, so that makes it even wilder. I like the kids, and want to make it work, it is just hard, and Clay and I are both sick too, so you know how hard it is to be patient with everyone when you are sick. And I have no choice but the be patient. I have to hold it all together, and not even show weakness for Clay, b/c he is already convinced this is too much and wants me to call our caseworker to find a new home for them, and I need to prove that I can do it all, b/c I want to make it work so they can stay here. Why would we do all this, to give up the 2nd time we get a placement? I know it will get easier with a routine, and I am willing to stick it out, but I also don't want him resenting me either. So, now that I got all that off my chest this morning, I need to go see about rearranging bedrooms. Amber takes ownership of everything she touches....this is MINE just b/c it is in the room that she is sleeping in. I think there needs to be a girl's room, a boy's room, and a toy room. Let's see if I have the energy to make that happen today!
Oh Maury! I know you can do it! I will come over and give you a break.... Pray for the strength, because I know you have it. This is just a HUGE adjustment to say the least.....
ReplyDeleteoh my gosh, girl. i don't know how you are doing it. i struggle with an extra kid when my kids have a friend over. ha i completely look up to you. you are an amazing mom/woman. As the person that has to call child protective services when we have something go awry (sp?), I see what goes on on my end, but never think about how the kids might not even know that their parents are doing something to get them taken away. i'm glad amber has adjusted well except for the toy thing, but she is 3 and i fully believe that you have terrible 3's! i'm assuming that zachariah (sp?) was taken away due to drug use while inutero, he is in a much better place there with you. i have seen those babies first hand and they are high when they are born and i just want to shake some sense into that mama. he is soooo cute!! you are in my thoughts and prayers! :)
ReplyDeleteboy, you are workin on being the next Files family, aren't ya! You can do it, I got faith in you.
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