How long do you hold on to clothes that don't fit???

The garage sale we were going to have a few weeks ago, we didn't have. That was when we all got sick, and then we had weddings...yadada....Clay is gone today to a wedding, so I decided to go out to the garage and start going through all the junk we hauled out there. And I am stuck at the same place I was the last time. Bags of clothes that I have outgrown. I have always been able to get rid of clothes easily. Things that fit weird, too big, too small....out the door. I have 2 bags of clothes that I outgrew about the time we moved to LR that I just can't bring myself to get rid of. Why?? I think it is b/c I am totally disgusted with myself for gaining this weight. This is the biggest I have ever been....the most miserable have ever been.

After I had Rachel, I was very busy, working, 3 young kids, and I had a ton of energy, walked all day long at work, and everyone at work was on weight watchers, so I started eating the same stuff they did. And I lost about 20 lbs. I had already lost some weight while I was pregnant, so at this time, I was the smallest I had been since sometime in college. I still had about 30 lbs left to lose, but I am tall, and that helps, and I was pretty happy with my size. Well.....I quit working, was home all day long with 3 babies, not walking as much b/c I was at this computer editing pictures, and all that good stuff. So, the weight started creeping back on. Then, though, Clay quit his job, and we moved into that apartment in Little Rock, and I think I gained at least 20 lbs while living there. That was such a stressful time! We would all get stressed out, and comfort ourselves by going out to eat. Then I had a lot of trouble with foot pain, so I started resting a lot more. And now, I can feel it so bad. I have no energy at all. I am miserable. Everything I do is an effort. My weight has leveled off the last 6 months or so b/c we have quit eating out as much and I have been watching what I eat some. But, I still just can't get motivated to move. I don't have the energy to do it. And I get overwhelmed by all that is going on around me with Clay, the kids, the business, the school, the neverending housework, and it goes on and on. So, what do I do when I am overwhelmed?? I sit down right here at this computer. That is why I blog so much.

So, back to my clothes. I was going to list them on e-bay. Most of them are brands that sell on there, that is what I have usually done in the past. I have never held onto clothes b/c I figure if I ever lose weight, it will either be long enough the styles have changed, or I will be so happy to lose weight I will just want to go buy more clothes. So why is it so hard this time?? I think a lot of it is b/c since I have gained weight, I have crossed over into having such a hard time finding cute stylish clothes, that it makes me sick to not be able to wear these others. Like right now, I have been busy all day, but now that I have sat down, I just want to fall out. Ugh...I hate being like this.